My heart wont stop racing. It’s 12:25am and I should be asleep already. But my head wont stop thinking about so much.
I have a week off work this week, and it’s my first week off since August. I’m really going to take the time to get myself back. I’ve completely lost myself since September, and I hate what I’ve done to myself. I actually feel confident that I can do it this time.
I used to post a lot about binge eating disorder. I’ve pretty much eliminated that from my life now. I haven’t had a binge eating episode in 2014, although I still struggle with my food, it’s nowhere near as bad as it was in the past.
I really needed to get out of bed and write this all down. These next 5 days are going to be the biggest challenge of the year so far.
On Friday I get to spend my first Valentine’s day with my boyfriend. I’m so excited, and I want to feel good for it. I’m seriously praying that I can do good to myself for the next 5 days.